hi.

I know.
There's no point in doing that stuff yall' mentioned bcos I tried it like, several gazillion times and it just doesn't work for me.

I'm a doofus.
Maybe I care too much about my personal image.
I'm always feeling painful inside.
I'm always embarrased at little things which I did wrong.
Then, it's because of this:

"Jean is such a doofus, you know. She can't concentrate on her math at all."

"Jean is a mighty big showoff. She can't keep her proudness under wraps."

" Jean is stupid. I wish she could shut up about this blimey situation."

" Jean needs to GET ON WITH THE PROGRAM!!!"

See what I mean?
The reason why I keep getting myself in this mess is because I want to make a good impression.

But at this rate, I guess I'm a sore loser with no such thing as a 'can-do' attitude.

Hey, Jos, thanks for encouraging me all this while. It took some time for me to realise that you were on my side and with me, I guess.

Life for me is indescribable. I have a great life but I'm always in a mess because of embarrasment.

I feel like kicking myself now.

In school, it's the only getaway for me because both my parents are in Frankfurt and I'm lonely.
I have grandparents who always forget that I'm having mood swings and a brother who is cute but irritating and a little rude to me.

My life is incredible.

T-T BOO HOO HOO.

My grandparents are scolding me now as they want to know what on earth I'm writing.
They don't understand that this is between me and the class and it's private to me.

Let's just say that the only person at home who understands me fully is my mom.

That's why I'm hurting. According to Joslyn, we're pre-teens and have mood swings.

The ELR